Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Maintaining the Peak

I've been really feeling inspired lately. My energy is changing a lot, and I can see myself coming into my own, in several ways. In short, its good to be me. 
One has to wonder though, how long something like this can last. I think I found out that three weeks was my max for riding the high. I don't feel totally disconnected now, which is different. I started to back slide and stopped doing a lot of the positive things I had started to develop into habits. Without going into my thoughts about it, I'll say this depressed me. I seemed to be able to pull myself out of the rut with practices. I can notice an elivation in my mood just from doing a short period of sitting meditation. 
When I mentioned this experience to one of my friends, he said everyone goes through this. You have highs and lows. Its just important to not dwell on the lows. I also think its important to bring something back with you. If there's not some kind of permenant change, then its not worth too much.
I believe the key to becoming a master is to continue to cultivate this states of high energy, and bring them closer together and make them last longer. I would like to think that eventually this becomes a sustainable state of being. I guess I came to this conclusion when I realized that must be what really successful productive people do. They throw themselves into a state of high productivity and high creativity and find ways to hold themselves there. They build there lives around that. 
I think it makes sense.


Lieutenant Commander Watts said...

A question of permanence comes to mind. Sort of like a Bodhisattva who has obtains Nirvana, but does not stay there.

The elevator stops at the top floor. At that point you're either lifted into heaven, or ride back down.

Bindu said...

I think that's an interesting point. One wonders what sort of experiences, or lack there of, monks have before and after they take their Bodhisattva vows, in terms of states of awareness.

Bindu said...

That's a really good point, actually. I had to read your comment a couple times, but it dawned on me: thinking of my experience as an aspect of impermanence puts it into much better perspective for me.