Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Maintaining the Peak

I've been really feeling inspired lately. My energy is changing a lot, and I can see myself coming into my own, in several ways. In short, its good to be me. 
One has to wonder though, how long something like this can last. I think I found out that three weeks was my max for riding the high. I don't feel totally disconnected now, which is different. I started to back slide and stopped doing a lot of the positive things I had started to develop into habits. Without going into my thoughts about it, I'll say this depressed me. I seemed to be able to pull myself out of the rut with practices. I can notice an elivation in my mood just from doing a short period of sitting meditation. 
When I mentioned this experience to one of my friends, he said everyone goes through this. You have highs and lows. Its just important to not dwell on the lows. I also think its important to bring something back with you. If there's not some kind of permenant change, then its not worth too much.
I believe the key to becoming a master is to continue to cultivate this states of high energy, and bring them closer together and make them last longer. I would like to think that eventually this becomes a sustainable state of being. I guess I came to this conclusion when I realized that must be what really successful productive people do. They throw themselves into a state of high productivity and high creativity and find ways to hold themselves there. They build there lives around that. 
I think it makes sense.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Keeping Pace

I've spent my whole life feeling like I couldn't keep pace. Always behind, always out of energy. I found the wellspring. Now it's time for everyone to try and keep pace with me.

Coming?

Spiritual Intelligence

I think there are many kinds of genius. One that is little understood, and by far the most powerful is Spiritual Intelligence. I don't know how specific of a definition I have for you, but it involves thinking at very high levels of logic and long periods of deep introspective analysis.

Been Down So Long by The Doors

Well, I've been down so Goddamn long That it looks like up to me Well, I've been down so very damn long That it looks like up to me Yeah, why don't one you people C'mon and set me free
I said, warden, warden, warden Won't you break your lock and key I said, warden, warden, warden Won't ya break your lock and key Yeah, come along here, mister C'mon and let the poor boy be
Baby, baby, baby Won't you get down on your knees Baby, baby, baby Won't you get down on your knees C'mon little darlin' C'mon and give your love to me, oh yeah
Well, I've been down so Goddamn long That it looks like up to me Well, I've been down so very damn long That it looks like up to me Yeah, why don't one you people C'mon, c'mon, c'mon and set me free
This song has become my new Mantra

No matter what happens...

From here on out, you'll always be safe. You have my word, and yours. Do you believe yourself?

Friday, May 01, 2009

Sour Grapes by Puscifer

And the angel of the lord led me Into the belly of the holy mother A chamber black as pitch But I felt no fear, only comfort,

For I was as a child in the womb And she begged me "Hear through yonder portal Which looked upon the heavens, And behold! a morning angel"

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

She ascended slowly from far beyond the horizon, Her light like a heavenly finger pointing the way And on yonder wall she traced for me a path Which led me five directions, eight winters to east,

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

And behold! As my feet landed firmly Upon the vital winter of the second storm There appeared before me a heavenly star

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

A holy virgin, the bringer of life and breath And she spoke unto me saying "Fear not the movement of the heavens above or the earth below For change is what we are, my child.

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

Righteous are those Who look up and sway with the wind, Who look down and dance with the shifting of the soil, Who swim with the movement of the tides

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

Who seek the truth around them And discover that we are And have always been in paradise. The reflections of heaven on earth. Amen!'

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

And she spoke again saying "Know, my child, That there is no devil seeking To cause guilt nor harm to men.

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

No evil, save blind faith, ignorance, And the desire for the unprepared To blame others for the devastation Left in the wake of change

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

Change, my child Change is in the heavens Change is on this earth Change is all around us

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

And if we Are reflections of the divine We must roll with these changes, For we are these changes.

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

Eyes wide open, We must look upon The heavens as a mirror. Wide awake, aware, deeply breathing

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

And when the shit comes down, my child, You will be there, A true and holy survivor To inherit the kingdom of god.

[Hal-le-lu-jah!]

You will rise above the rumbles of the unprepared To greet the new day, To drink from the sweet fruit of the vine, The water of life, the blood of the risen Christ, my child.'

[Je-ho-vah! Yah-weh!]

'Go now, son, Tell them all. The ignorant, the blind paw by dogma, Blinded by faith, the doubters, the nay sayers.

[Je-ho-vah! Yah-weh!]

Tell them all, child, They can not see The kingdom of God, They can not see paradise Unfold before them

[Je-ho-vah! Yah-weh!]

They can not drink From the chalice Which holds the blood of Christ, The water of life, Until they get right with Jesus.

[Je-ho-vah! Yah-weh!]

Until they get right with Jesus. It's always gonna be Sour grapes with you, boy, Until you get right with Jesus. Amen!

[Je-ho-vah! Yah-weh!]