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Sunday, May 17, 2009
Well, I've been down so Goddamn long That it looks like up to me Well, I've been down so very damn long That it looks like up to me Yeah, why don't one you people C'mon and set me freeThis song has become my new Mantra
I said, warden, warden, warden Won't you break your lock and key I said, warden, warden, warden Won't ya break your lock and key Yeah, come along here, mister C'mon and let the poor boy be
Baby, baby, baby Won't you get down on your knees Baby, baby, baby Won't you get down on your knees C'mon little darlin' C'mon and give your love to me, oh yeah
Well, I've been down so Goddamn long That it looks like up to me Well, I've been down so very damn long That it looks like up to me Yeah, why don't one you people C'mon, c'mon, c'mon and set me free
Friday, May 01, 2009
For I was as a child in the womb And she begged me "Hear through yonder portal Which looked upon the heavens, And behold! a morning angel"
She ascended slowly from far beyond the horizon, Her light like a heavenly finger pointing the way And on yonder wall she traced for me a path Which led me five directions, eight winters to east,
And behold! As my feet landed firmly Upon the vital winter of the second storm There appeared before me a heavenly star
A holy virgin, the bringer of life and breath And she spoke unto me saying "Fear not the movement of the heavens above or the earth below For change is what we are, my child.
Righteous are those Who look up and sway with the wind, Who look down and dance with the shifting of the soil, Who swim with the movement of the tides
Who seek the truth around them And discover that we are And have always been in paradise. The reflections of heaven on earth. Amen!'
And she spoke again saying "Know, my child, That there is no devil seeking To cause guilt nor harm to men.
No evil, save blind faith, ignorance, And the desire for the unprepared To blame others for the devastation Left in the wake of change
Change, my child Change is in the heavens Change is on this earth Change is all around us
And if we Are reflections of the divine We must roll with these changes, For we are these changes.
Eyes wide open, We must look upon The heavens as a mirror. Wide awake, aware, deeply breathing
And when the shit comes down, my child, You will be there, A true and holy survivor To inherit the kingdom of god.
You will rise above the rumbles of the unprepared To greet the new day, To drink from the sweet fruit of the vine, The water of life, the blood of the risen Christ, my child.'
'Go now, son, Tell them all. The ignorant, the blind paw by dogma, Blinded by faith, the doubters, the nay sayers.
Tell them all, child, They can not see The kingdom of God, They can not see paradise Unfold before them
They can not drink From the chalice Which holds the blood of Christ, The water of life, Until they get right with Jesus.
Until they get right with Jesus. It's always gonna be Sour grapes with you, boy, Until you get right with Jesus. Amen!
Sunday, March 05, 2006
As much credit as people give Star Wars, it's value may still be underestimated. Star Wars gives our society something we need desperately, a mythology. This is no simple feat. Only a true genius, someone predestined for their roll, could supply our jaded society with relevant and penetrating archetypical symbols. Unfortunately, given the subjective nature of post modern society, these symbols can't be conveyed universally, such as through a religion, but are only available to those willing to see them, and see them for what they are, at that. Meaning one can't watch Star Wars having already decided it's worthless and lacks any value and still receive these symbols. Star Wars has, of course, gotten much attention for it's strong connection with Myth and Archetype. The reason it may be underestimated, given that, is the subtlety, precision, and scope with which Lucas conveys this in his Magnum Opus, Episode 3.
Our society is at the beginning of a new age, a new way of thinking, acting, and feeling. We are out of balance, because we abandoned the intuitive levels of reality in favor of the rational/intellectual levels. Our modern culture is so desensitized to information, because we're inundated daily with it, it creates a serious dilemma for us, in terms of filtering what's important. Basically, our filter is clogged. We no longer have the traditional methods of accessing these archetypes, of assimilating myths. Gone are the effective initiation rituals, and gone are the elders responsible for connecting us with our ancestors. Simply put, we can no longer properly interpret life data.
Lucas being the visionary that he is, understood this problem back in 1977, and has been driving straight to the problems core since. Lucas hasn't just created story ideas and characters that are myth like, anyone could do that. He is creating a new kind of medium for myth. One thing our society strongly responds to are movies. Because we are so desensitized and so fortified against intrusion, movies, being our newest art form (unless you count video games), still allow access to the deeper experiential, intuitive levels. Lucas utilizes this fact to full effect. He doesn't explain or even imply that Palpatine is the Devil, he shows us. We don't grasp that fact through actions or words so much as by actually seeing a physical transformation take place. So, we're drawn into the story, letting it penetrate to our deeper levels, and then shown these vivid archetypal images, which allows the proper imprinting and activation to occur.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
We must always stay engaged with reality. If we react defensively and withdraw, we become static.
It is said that reality is a continuous field of being. In a sense this allows us to perceive that everything is sustained by and within a single source and point. Perhaps meaning a central intelligence. Everything exists in relation to this source. I am not an individuated entity, I am a reaction to the source of being. Consciousness flows from the One to me; meaning, it is not generated, does not originate from me, within myself.
I believe this truth stands as a confirmation of meaning and value. Science even tells us consciousness has a direct effect on reality. To me, this says that consciousness is inherent, fundamental to the field of being. That stands as confirmation, because an aspect of this truth is that consciousness exists independent of physical existence.
Another conclusion one can draw from this is that our body is a receiver picking up the signal of consciousness. This brings me back to the idea of staying engaged. It is important to realize that consciousness is the essence of dynamic. If we become defensive and dam up, we are cutting ourselves off from the source, in the most literal way. We are plugged in, in a sense. Not staying engaged with outside stimuli is lethal! We must maintain a dialog with our life, for that dialog is all we are.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
- The Reed Flute's Song
Listen to the story told by the reed,
of being seperated.
"Since I was cut from the reedbed,
I havemade this crying sound.
Anyone apart from someone he loves
understands what I say.
Anyone pulled from the source
longs to go back
At any gathering I am there,
mingling in the laughing and grieving,
a friend to each, but few
will hear the secrets hidden
within the notes. No ears for that.
Body flowing out of spirit,
spirit up from body: no concealing
that mixing. But it's not given us
to see the soul. The reed flute
is fire, not wind. Be that empty."
Hear the love fire tangled
in the reed notes, as bewilderment
melts into wine. The reed is a friend
to all who want the fabric torn
and drawn away. The reed is hurt
and salve combining. Intimacy
and longing for intimacy, one
song. A disastrous surrender
and a fine love, together. The one
who secretly hears this is senseless.
A tongue has one customer, the ear.
A sugarcane flute has such effect
because it was able to make sugar
in the reedbed. The sound it makes
is for everyone. Days full of wanting,
let them go by without worrying
that they do. Stay where you are
inside such a pure, hollow note.
Saturday, December 10, 2005
I've spent most of my conscious life believing that freedom was really some kind of joke. It has always seemed to me that we're so defined by governmental laws, and social structures and patterns, that we don't have much choice in how we lead our lives. This is what I see now as a partial truth. Although because of our definitions and values, all these things are true, nothing is ever that black and white. We are compelled, in our society, to follow the social structure. I think of it as social energy, perhaps akin to Confucius' idea of psychic debt. There are rewards for being "successful" and punishments for not (lack of assets for social advancement based on consumer standards which could ultimately lead to destitution)
But we aren't bound to that path. We can choose not to be successful.(or be chosen, perhaps?) There is a remarkable range in society, within which people can assert themselves. A person living in poverty can commonly become extremely rich and possibly even famous. Also, there is a pattern within modern society that I think bares mentioning. Commonly manifesting in men, we ascend the social hierarchy, become successful, and then in a fit of despair, or a functional crisis, we throw it all away. Plunging into depression, loosing our jobs, spouses, etc. Scary thought?
I guess this is to say, be wary. But really my point is I feel blessed. I've had a remarkable amount of freedom in my life, to my detriment, I think. But, never the less, I've lived a very leisurely life. No concern for having my needs met; always having enough to satisfy my consumer ego, on some level. I am blessed with a contemplative side. I feel like I've been guided through life. I can, at least, reconcile my losses and disappointments. I can acknowledge life, my life, with all it's tragedy and suffering as something holy, something sacred.
To conclude my thoughts. It's remarkable that I've had access to the information I have and the grace to understand it. It's a journey and a ever present obstacle, but I am filled with love and lust for life. I feel that life is a gift, and I'm fortunate to live in an age of such freedom of thought and activity. We are denied many things in our society. At least we can find meaning in our own lives. At least there are laws that preserve our basic humanity. At least progress is guided by Spirit enough to allow us to inform ourselves. We can finally transcend all of these social dilemmas and unnecessary tragedies. We can move past physical determination and define ourselves, if we have the courage. At least there is a bright future to embrace.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
My heart burst forth into the heavens. Need draws me out, compels me beyond reason to find my source. Anticipation and longing, reaching for something that one can never quite grasp. There is nothing to be found. Emptiness, except for love. Love is the last truth, the only truth. Here, I find the garden.
My heart floats on the currents of love. My salvation found, love the redeemer. In pain, in strife, I cling to it. In the darkest depths of my soul I find it waiting for me. I rise. My strength born of love.
Strength born of compassion. I reach out and find myself, waiting there, looking through another's eyes. Waiting and hoping that love can find itself.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
I've been away for a while, doing some work in the shadows.
Something that has always been an issue for me is whatever correlation there is between day to day experience and experience of the Sacred. On a personal level, I have alot of "emotional baggage" left over from a traumatic childhood. And with this baggage fully in tow, I've often attempted my journey into Sacred Space. It doesn't work, at least not for me.
I believe there are as many methods of dealing with our baggage as their are people. I think alot of people have some religious conversion, or something along those lines, and they are alot better for it afterwards. Through Faith, or something akin to it, they grow past their insecurities and come to trust in a higher power. Well, not me. :( No matter how much I can come to terms with Life intellectually, I still have a fundamental pessimism and self criticism as the basis for my truth assertions.
I stopped posting here about the same time I started going to therapy sessions. I realized that there's so much my subconscious hides from my conscious mind; I have no idea how someone can deal with these things without an objective guide. Be that a therapist, priest, or guru, if you relate to what I'm saying: do yourself a favor and find someone to help. I bring up therapy, in order to elaborate on what I've learned there.
I started therapy to help myself deal with some minor problems. Such as nervousness, lack of energy and motivation, mood swings, etc. You could say that on a certain level I knew I have some issues concerning my parents, especially my father. I figured if that was important it would come up, and boy was I right!
At this point I could proceed to write twenty pages on what I've gathered from therapy, and it wouldn't mean much to anyone but me. So with that in mind, I'll be as concise as I can.
Basically, the emotional wounds that I speak of are, as far as I understand, created from a lack of acceptance from my father and lack of guidance from my mother. Because my father wasn't able to face up to his life, he wounded me in the same way he must be wounded. As children, we are indoctrinated into reality by our parents. In an ideal world, that would mean we were welcomed and shown the joy, beauty, and miraculous nature of reality. In actuality though, we are sometimes kept at arms length by aloof parents, who themselves are to wounded to show a child the love they need and deserve.
It's something of a complicated issue. I think essentially though, those who experience this type of treatment from their parents spend the rest of their lives yearning for acceptance. Acceptance is really an internal thing. We may perceive that we want others to accept us, and since we're defined relationally, that's a valid observation. Since, on an individual level, our choices and perspectives are always primary, we have to accept ourselves. No one else can do that for us. Our parent's job is to show us that it's ok to find self acceptance. No one is perfect, we all make huge mistakes, sometimes. The point being we have to forgive ourselves, and accept who we are, and where we are in terms of our expectations.
I have been reading about religion and spirituality very actively since nineteen years old, which is going on 6 years now. I've formulated alot of concepts about how people should act and be treated. I should love everyone, unconditionally. And it's true I should. I'm not there yet; however, that doesn't stop me from expecting myself to always forgive and understand. So I beat myself up over alot of stuff, that I need not. There's this whole cycle of aversion and association, that I won't get into here. Let me say, though, that this Self Critic that is always there judging every thought and action, affects every conceivable aspect of my life.
The reason my father is so important, he's my initial definition of masculinity, that thing by which I choose to define myself. Thus to accept what I am, I needed him to accept me into his world, the masculine realm. I never received this acceptance, and never will. The change for me now, is that I know I can never have that. How can I expect someone, who still at sixty years old can't accept themselves, to accept the ultimate symbol of their mortality, his son?
There's alot of resultant concerns such as initiation and understanding my need to wrestle my demons, so to speak. I'm left with the task of breaking the cycle and self initiation. My time to pass into manhood has come, and I must illuminate my shadows, embrace this all important wound, find my inner strength. This is all left for me to do. My individuality has been so accentuate by my lack of guidance and necessity for independence due to perceived isolation, that I'm left to my own devices to resolve this.
To conclude, there's a thought I want to discuss. I am proud to say, the primary origin of this is Star Wars. (nerd = me, yeah I know) As I've been going to counseling and these ideas are beginning to become coherent, and I'm learning to be honest with myself, I see many new perspectives on old things. It seems to me that my father was inundated into the new male paradigm of sensitivity and softness of the feminine liberation going on for the last half century or so, which will be a very prominent aspect of our history, was still rigidly held to an old world male paradigm. I think this is why he was never able to heal himself. He was forced to deal with the feminine, in a way all modern men are called on to do, but not given the freedom and perspective with which to do it. I can speak from experience, even being the extremely liberal and "liberated" male that I am. Being to much in touch with my feminine, to the point that certain aspects of masculinity make me uncomfortable, I know how difficult it is for me. Perhaps, my destiny is to redeem my father. Because I've been graced with the capacity to actually deal with this social dilemma, and apparently my father was not. Through my finding the strength to grow past my abandonment and forgive and accept him, he will find the strength and motivation to accept himself.
Anyway, really those are just strong words, from a scared little boy. But I'm facing up to it, and hopefully I have cosmic evolution on my side. I'll let you know how it turns out.
- "Father, I have to save you."
- "You already have, Luke... you already have"
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Ok so we've become totally liberated from our old paradigms. We no longer cling to superstitious nonsense or needless attachment, we've fully learned how to let go. Where does that leave us? This is a question i've asked over and over in one form or another, and i have yet another possible way to answer it.
Deconstructing ourselves in this way isn't liberation from anything. We're only making a confused mess of ourselves. We must find some way to orient ourselves between the inner and outer worlds. Once we see that there's something beyond normal tangible reality, we have to take that next step and determine what that is. Most people, including myself, get stuck in between these two points. How can we verify anything beyond what we can experience? You can't, but when we get stuck like this it's because we're unclear how to go about experiencing this inner world.
The Heart is our divine kernel, our gateway to the infinite. Our ability to reason is inconsequential next to the infinite nature of Spirit. So we have to have certain built in value structures and compulsions, in order to really embody the divine. It goes far beyond a "built in value structure" though. Since our very nature is divine, is infinite, we can never be totally isolated. All those aspects of existence that are beyond our comprehension are a part of us, we simply can't grasp them with our reasoning mind. The Heart is an intuitive sense. It is our perception of the quality of the universe. When we look inward we see that there is another type of reality. One that isn't substantial, but all the more important for that reason. Because we can't quantify the nature of Love or Hope... that doesn't mean they aren't real.
We have to move beyond our reasoning mind. Even more pertinent we have to move beyond our own deconstructed existence. Take a step outside the void. If you look inward you can sense those deeper more subtle layers of existence but they will never be laid bare for our intellect. We have to refine our ability to perceive with the heart. I think as we do this the overemphasis we place on external reality will fall away and be put into balance with the internal. The Heart is our bridge between these two worlds, just as we are that same bridge from a larger perspective. Humanity is juxtaposed between outer and inner. It is our Duty and our Destiny to bring these two worlds together. Our Gift is this capacity to become fully realized, to be a perfect expression of reality. We also stand at the pinnacle of Kosmic achievement(at least as far as we can tell) and the very reason we are at this precipice is this merger of two worlds lies within our domain.
This inevitable union has been placed in our hands. I believe that would fully explain the difficulty we all seem to experience in coming to terms with our reality. A reality made up of two distinct planes and the only contact they have is within us. This is not to say spirit does not come in contact with the physical world, on the contrary the two aren't separated enough to use the term contact. What i speak of as separated is a realized existence within these two worlds. That is our great task and great privilege
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
It's been a while...
This isn't a subject i would normally talk about but something that has really caught my attention recently is how much life changes as you make a transition from childhood to being an adult.
There's so many things you begin to be aware of, that you as a child would never have given a second thought. You know i've been reading a great blog here in the integral community called Freedom, Flexibility, and Flow. One post links to a blog entry giving a summary of the various how to be wealthy books out there.... In the bookstores i've never even glanced twice at them... but when is started browsing this post and realized there was some useful information to be gained, i became very fascinated. What i'm getting at is that i'd have never begun to imagine (even 2 years ago) that i would have any interest in reading about financial strategies. Yet there i was enraptured thinking "i could do that, i could do that" You know as a testament to how much positive thinking plays a role, once i realized from reading that article that it was alot easier to begin financial planning than i could have imagined, i have had minor success in starting the process, enough to notice a difference anyway.
That's only once example among many. Another major example would be my concern over "settling down" and having children. The idea is very attractive to me these days. I've always known i wanted children, but it seemed to far off to be an issue. Now i'm worried that if i wait to much longer, i'll be to old to enjoy them as adults. But also shouldn't i travel and focus on my career for a while? It's problems like this that seem to occupy my time these days, and i don't quite know what to make of it.
More than anything i worry about my level of self sufficiency. When i was 19 i thought nothing of my mother helping me financially, now when that happens i feel guilty about it. I used to hate going to work, but i've become so concerned with making sure that i maintain a stable life style that i wouldn't miss work if i had any choice at all.
So these are my growing pains. I thought i would share them with everyone. This for me is a major part of my "spiritual" development. I've realized in the last year or two that living my life as well as i can will be more fulfilling to me than any spiritual discipline i could adopt. So although i still pursue my spiritual goals in order to find peace of mind, make enough sense of the world to take action, and gain wisdom about the nature of reality, i realize this is only a means to and end... not the goal itself.
Sunday, June 05, 2005
the island king of love
deep in fijian seas
deep in some blissful dream
where the goddess finally sleeps
in the lap of her lover
subdued in all her rage
and I am aglow with the taste
of the demons driven out
and happily replaced
with the presence of real love
the only one who saves
I wanna dance with you
I see a world where people live and die with grace
the karmic ocean dried up and leave no trace
I wanna dance with you
I see a sky full of the stars that change our minds
and lead us back to a world we would not face
the stillness in your eyes
convinces me that I
I don't know a thing
and I been around the world and I've
tasted all the wines
a half a billion times
came sickened to your shores
you show me what this life is for
I wanna dance with you
I see a world where people live and die with grace
the karmic ocean dried up and leave no trace
I wanna dance with you
I see a sky full of the stars that change our minds
and lead us back to a world we would not face
in this altered state
full of so much pain and rage
you know we got to find a way to let it go
sittin' on the beach
the island king of love
deep in fijian seas
deep in the heart of it all
where the goddess finally sleeps
after eons of war and lifetimes
she smilin' and free, nothin' left
but a cracking voice and a song, oh lord
I wanna dance with you
i see a world where people live and die with grace
the karmic ocean dried up and leave no trace
I wanna dance with you
i see a sky full of the stars that change our minds
and lead us back to a world we would not face
we would not face
we would not face
we would not face
we would not face
we would not face
"Dance With You" -Live
Friday, June 03, 2005
I think people spend to much time looking at the destructive aspect of reality. Everything is being born and burning out through infinity, each moment is blooming and withering everywhere forever. It's hard to express the nature of what seems to be going on in the universe. And that is the way we tend to look at it, it really has nothing to do with our lives at all. There's this vast cosmic cycle going on all around us, and then there's banal old us just watching, being doomed to die. When in reality we, like all the Kosmos, are born anew in each moment of existence.
One day this miracle that is "ourselves" will cease to be, but other "ourselves" shall replace this current form to bring fresh experience and love to the universe. To often we think about how we are mortal and will one day pass on. We look at all the destruction and suffering around us. We see our personal lives break down in one way or another through the years. We watch friends and lovers come and go. We try and hold on to something, to someone and we never can.
It's funny what kind of reality you can paint for yourself depending on how you look at the world. When we see the destruction in the universe all around us what we're not looking at is the love around us. Because of the tumultuous nature of existence, we must be propelled from creation to destruction via the laws of nature. It is in this monster's grip that we can descend and ascend and finally transcend all boundaries that are. But considering the amount of energy being poured forth by the Kosmos everyday to propel this universe onward, the infinite love expressed in the energy of one microsecond of a cosmic genesis. And here we stand at it's crest passionately pursuing our deaths everyday. When in reality death is only the backdrop against which all meaning we find is considered. Death is only an end, not a meaning or anything to be anticipated. Of course our anxiety is inevitable, but when we spend our entire lives cowering in fear and hesitating in anxiety, what will we have when that end does come?
We stand on this pinnacle of Kosmic achievement, we are poised at the dawn of Kosmic Consciousness. I say the Kingdom of Heaven awaits us! Yet we are so intent on the suffering that propels us to greatness that we never achieve it. I say wake up and embrace your divinity. Realize we are cradled in the arms of Infinite Love. By no evil of man, no matter how atrocious, can this love be undone. It binds us all inextricably together. Whether that intimate embrace allows our destruction or salvation, i believe is entirely up to us.
Monday, May 30, 2005
What defines a Man? I think it is a state of mind, it's an ability to harness the energies put at your disposal. To reach out, to create, to labor, to protect, to be strong, all those things are part of the description. Yet it's so much more and so much less. I think you can put as many layers on male motivation as you have time or care to, but you can also reduce it to not much more than a simple statement. I would like to establish that i'm not speaking from what i've been told by tradition or a father figure. My particular life afforded no such mediums through which to embrace my "Manhood". It is something which i have tried to understand on my own, for better or worse i've had to form my own opinions. The reason i choose to write about my values in this context is because i realize that myself, and most males, associate themselves very strongly with an ideal of manhood. Since that role has been defined slightly different in various cultures, that's all the more reason to reassess what that word means, if anything at all. On the most essential level masculinity is defined by it's opposite femininity. That definition is one of agency and assertive energy, a need...a lust for creation. As opposed to one of receptiveness, care, and connection.
Man at his greatest has united enemies and forged world empires and reigned over peaceful nations in benevolence. At his best man has carried the burden of family with grace and dignity and honor. He has labored to provide, he has died to protect, and gone into the unknown to discover. Man at his worst has committed genocide, started wars and taken lives for greed and personal power. At his worst man has no concern for others only a lust to become stronger. One thing that is consistent in all those situations is the vast potential at man's disposal.
We are the stronger less sensitive half of humanity, but it has been our duty and priviledged to protect our physically weaker, more sensitive, more caring companions. The feminine embraces and holds in communion all that humanity values, we are the force that brings human ambition to fruition. All feminist dogma aside, this is the simple way of things. As far as it seems observable. Those are the roles that we've been forged into, both biologically and socially. Of course it is also part of our existence to transcend such roles, but there is still value in tradition. Women typically were the caretakers and family bulwarks because they excel at it and i think typically enjoy doing it. (again all feminist dogma aside) Men on the other hand are developed more for physical labor and seem to have a temperament which facilitates action and makes them more resistant to some crueltys the world has to offer. Again, because i don't want anyone to feel excluded or offended, i want to stress that while that may be the typical roles we are no longer bound to them. There is no reason why men can't be excellent homemakers and women can't be assertive and endurant.
Ok now that i've defined the masculine role in respect to the feminine i would like to go back to what masculinity means on an individual level, not from a community perspective. I believe essentially it is honor and fortitude. To fulfill our potential we must have the will to follow the right path and the will to endure that which might seem unbearable. I believe that for man and women alike our divine connection can offer unlimited strength, but it can take different forms in each gender. Every example of a great man is recognized because of his willingness to go the farthest or work the hardest or endure the most.
So what does honor mean? To an american that's a hard question to answer, our values are so lax. It's important to carefully contemplate and define the role honor plays. I think integrity has alot to do with honor. If a man takes pride in himself and his works then he treats the world around him with the same respect he affords himself. That is one kind of honor. There is also the will to help and defend those weaker than ourselves. I know we're not superheros, but we must always reach out to those in need, and since men don't usually take supportive roles our way of contributing is by offering our strength and integrity as a tool and weapon (if necessary) I believe honor on a larger scale is how our actions effect different levels of reality. Perhaps you could say honor is a larger framework within which to put right and wrong. This is because alot of times honor will outweigh the immediate rightness or wrongness of a given situation.
I believe though we are descended from greatness. Each of us has the blood of Kings in our veins. (Queen plays in the background) We have the courage and valiance to do what must be done, even when that is the last thing we want to do. That is what defines true manhood, and perhaps womanhood as well. I think this is a pale expression of the true grace of the divine gift of masculinity but as we strive we can continue toward purity and become something unequaled in it's magnificence. We are the Divine's highest expression in our world. Spirit flows through us and creates with our hands and minds. Just as easily all the potential we can tap into can be used for great evil, if one does not consciously rein in their desires. We must cling to ideas like honor and love and integrity if we wish to face the trials of a new era. Perhaps one could say that we need to evolve our mostly forgotten old world values into the modern age.
Saturday, May 28, 2005
What is the possible necessity of having a tradition to follow as a spiritual path? Some people think it's almost unavoidable and then there's other's who scorn the idea. (i'm speaking of non literalists only) Then of those who think following a tradition is the best route i believe there is again a division. Some believe you should immerse yourself in one tradition in order to adopt the world view and thus be able to follow there forms into the deeper realms of spiritual practice. Then others believe that you can have a buffet style spirituality where one can rummage through philosophies and practices and make your own patchwork religion.
I have no idea where i stand on this issue, it's something that has been very hard for me to come to a conclusion on. I think as an american i have an overly emphasized ego and put alot more value on my personal self than other cultures may. This makes the idea of confining my way of thinking to one specific paradigm very unappealing. Why should i do something like that when i can remain aloof from such commitments and appreciate each one? I can see though that this does limit the possible depth of my experience. For example the Sufis (a group i have some first hand experience with) would never teach an outsider their deepest mystical practices, tradition simply doesn't work that way.
Islam in general would be a good example of this conflict of interest. The word itself means submission to god. A Muslim is One Who Submits to God. I think that is such a beautiful expression of the limits of the individual trying to commune with the infinite expressions of Spirit. Spirit is something so far beyond comprehension that the only way we can be a receptacle is by emptying ourselves of any pretensions and submitting ourselves to the will of the Kosmos. As expressed in the idea of Islam, the Buddhist concept no-self, and the idea of Tao (the way that is known is not the true Way). To me however this sounds like, a very anti-individual mentality. What american is willing to trust the religion of Islam enough to completely submit to Allah's will? Obviously the specific religion has nothing to do with Allah's will, at least no more than any other bulwark tradition. But if we're talking about submitting to a tradition's will, which i believe is the context an american would take that in, forget it. I don't mean to express things in black or white, not all americans would feel that way, and it would be much more complex of an issue. But i still think that is a hurdle any of us would need to cross on some level.
The idea of Buffet spirituality i find to be distasteful myself, at least put in those terms. I don't think any non literalist is going to claim anything along the lines of needing to exclusively practice one religion, period. However if you simply pick and choose among religions , the argument is, you're loosing the essence of the expression. I believe that religions are alive, evolving entities. Alive because the community is bound by Spirit and changes as the community does, with new generations comes new interpretations of that which is transmitted. This transmission is a vital aspect of the religion's living essence. I think when we divided the religions up into specific ideas and philosophies and cease to look at them unto themselves we are dissecting them. And while we may find empirical usefulness in the dissected parts of an animal, the living creature itself has much greater value. We are taking all the Spirit out of them and deflating their true value.
I'm sure they're are many other arguments for both possibilities, but that's my perspective on it. Where that leaves me, i dunno, and for right now i'm ok with that.
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Ok, i'm a little late here, but i've gotta pay homage to my roots. Star Wars has always been a light in the dark for me. It has been everything from my favorite form of entertainment to my own mythology, which i think is the beauty of it, that it can encompass both of those.
This final chapter in the saga is the best of all. It brings the two trilogies together in ways i could have never guessed. It also adds quite alot of depth to the plot, and gives it a deeper metaphysical meaning. I'll save the explaining of that for someone who has done a better job than i would.
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
As the universe grows in complexity it seems to become more self aware. There seems to be interactions on higher and higher levels of organization. We as the (assumedly) first self-aware beings in this Kosmos are the harbingers of a great change in the nature of spirit.
What came before can really only be interpreted as a mechanistic reality. Rules upon rules pushing the universe onward. A vast and intricate dance set in motion by a singular moment's end. It seems that the universe has an unlimited capacity for emergence and creation bound to an inexorable terminus or loss of momentum.
This has culminated in our human identity. Human identity which is essentially our ability to observe ourselves and create associations against a backdrop of seeming chaos and entropy. We are juxtaposed between the physical and mental realm. The only conceivable connection would be spirit. Thus we must discover spirit in order to understand ourselves. Once we understand the essence of the interpenetration of the physical and mental realms we will understand the essence of ourselves.
With humanity evolution has become conscious of itself. Now that we have the potential to control our reality and direct where it flows, we must make a choice. We can evolve and find greater and greater unity in the Kosmos or we can be left behind, because i believe Spirit will find an outlet. In order for the one to become aware of itself it must journey through the many and back again. We are hitting a punctuated level of development that requires us as individuals to become aware of our divine nature because that is the next step in the process. We are the many looking toward the one.
I was thinking about this today: Over the years after i was introduced to eastern philosophy i've integrated a level of non attachment. I'm not a consistent meditator, but because i've focused on the idea so much i've trained my mind to let go of objects more easily. I realized though that the energy to affect change like that originated at the level of belief. My assertion that non attachment is a positive thing created a drive to embody that value.
Is there some force that will see truth brought about? Once someone's consciousness has decided that an idea is important and true what would one call the energy born into such a conviction? I believe that the very force that binds and creates reality can be identified in our convictions. The important correlation here would be that our motivation and beliefs are intertwined with the very spirit of divine manifestation.
Should we view activity is a direct source of divine nature? Can our actions embody the very essence of Spirit? I say the answer is a very obvious yes. In the scheme of The One and The Many, the entire aspect of The Many is enfoldment and thus the nature of Spirit. I believe this begs the question: if Spirit or divine manifestation are interrelated to action arising from conviction what if any separation of the two ideas are there? It would be easy enough to say that although conviction is made up of manifest spirit, manifest spirit isn't simply conviction. I think that they are not so easily separated though.
When you look at what most of reality is made up of, it's simply perceived rules and truths within which we conduct our affairs. So this creates a need for that activity in order to bring about the defining truths. No separation and interaction, no truth or operational rules will ever be formed. What i'm trying to convey is that our beliefs, our impetus to carry on our lives is the very ground of being. Without that preexisting value without the motivation to live life, there is nothing, nothingness.
As i've talked about before most truth is subjective, created from our various stimuli. The important thing to consider though is the nature of our values and beliefs and actions. From those deep seated associations we form the structure of existence. I think that this realization that conviction is of divine origin is a call to arms. If we are the harbingers of spirit via our actions then how important does that make them? We must attempt to embody every moment in the purest Self. Our most mundane actions are in fact divine. With the eternal living moment we must commune.
Every moment is brought into existence from nothing, just one changing, flowing medium. There must be some logic or intellect behind it, some source of outflowing information or reality. If we are in touch with the moment then we can see that most things arise directly from any emphasis that is placed upon it by the mind. I believe that leaves us with two valid points. We must stay in touch with our present awareness in order to understand the ebb and flow of energy out of our personal wants and needs. And to be mindful of our actions and what kind of reality they would bring about. If we can strive to see god in each and every moment then we shall have a holy reality, a kingdom of God, where he is fully manifest and in communion with us. But until we can rise to the task of fulfilling that vast potential, we must strive to express ourselves as fully as possible in each and everything we do.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Change is the fundamental aspect of existence. Life is composed of change, depends upon it. It is one organic evolving whole whose primary operation is coemergence. This is the metaphysical rule that every experience can ultimately be reduced to.
It's simple when you think about it. If the universe was only one coherent whole, with no moving, differentiated parts, then nothing would ever change. Time would not exist, no perception could ever arise. In order for us to apprehend the universe things must be in a constant state of movement or change.
This sounds like easy logic and a good way to look at the universe, which it is. But this simple rule creates a lot of strife for us mortals! In fact this is the essence of the buddha's 4 noble truths. The buddha says that: 1) Life is suffering and that 2) this suffering is caused by our clinging to impermanent objects which will eventually be wrenched away from us but 3) this suffering has a resolution which is 4) training ourselves to cease clinging to these objects. (by following the eightfold path)
Because we identify ourselves with something that will eventually pass away we experience pain and loss over the passing. If we can objectify this process and realize that those objects are not in fact part of our selves, then we can let them go without the pain of loss. This idea scares people deeply. What joy could one have from life without the intimate associations we create with our environment? A perfectly valid concern when one's only mode of knowing is through personal association.
Once we have let go of our association of object with self we have a much deeper and fuller access to reality. There is no need for the person-object dichotomy, because we experience both as a fluid exchange. We are in direct contact with the essence of reality not looking at it from a fractured, grasping perspective. When this fundamental barrier does come down we begin to realize that what we perceived as reality is actually nothing but what we lay on top of the "true reality", how we make it fit into our finite consciousness. True reality is not something to be divided up by labels but something experienced directly, pure apprehension without conscious intervention. This is what we must strive for if we wish to transcend suffering and simultaniously develop a greater connection to our reality.
Friday, May 06, 2005
All we have is this moment, nothing more. To extend ourselves beyond that is to live within an illusion. What do we know for sure? I know i have this moment, this singular, ongoing, ever present moment. At least until it passes away, that is i pass away. We can come to see certain perspectival truths through looking into the realm of ideas and by objectified time (projecting ourselves forward and back in memory and fantasy)
It's worth saying that there's plenty of ways to create meaning for ourselves, but that's just it, it's self created, not a priori(if i'm using that term properly) Most meanings and values exist only within the confines of our mental realm not as a pre-given part of reality. All we really have is this moment. We are sent into this world not knowing who we are, or what we're meant to be, or how we came to be. The only thing we are given is our ongoing moment to moment awareness.
I, personally, believe there is alot of meaning in the universe, and not just meaning but purpose. There is a reason we are here without the why and left to discover the how on our own. In order to truly appreciate life, we have to see the beauty of simply existing in the moment, in becoming one with that environment. That i believe is the key to it all. Though many realizations may follow that one, without that fundamental insight into the miraculous nature of existence we are left as subjects to the whims of our ego.
I think it all comes down to the ego, in alot of ways. We are here to realize gods existence, to be his instrument or his eyes. I think god needs us as much as we need him. Where we are confined to this perspective and bound to this world and feel as though we can't realize the infinite, to contact the unknowable. In that same way god, as an idea, is so ultimately transcendent that he can never know himself. Because the moment he breaks away from that unmanifest nature to become aware of himself, there's a new division and god no longer is whole and complete. That is where we come in, a part of god has to play the part of "not god". Only through this divine dance, can we both come to understand ourselves.
It's an interesting dilemma. We are here to realize our greater connection to the many, our existence as the many, and how we are foolish to ever think there is an I included in this reality. There is no I, only I-You. The only way to do this is by being a singular entity, by being confined to what we perceive as ourselves, we create a contrast that allows us the perception of our Oneness. This is where ego becomes very important.
Our life must seem very valuable, it's the only thing we know, it's all that there is to know. We are who we are, which obviously is fundamental to our values. We are so close to the miracle of existence, yet so far away. We can see it off in the distance, that ultimate meaning, but we can never touch it, never realize it, never truly know it with our minds. God is ultimately unknowable and empty from our perspective, the closer we get to god the less we can see him. So here we are holding on to our precious lives with all we can manage because that's all we've got. Yet no one tells us: You're going to be ok. You will abide in me after death... nada, nothing! No special magic books to tell us what god is like, just the pure, distilled truth of the unknown. Kinda scares the shit outta ya when you think about it like that.
Yet it is only in the face of this dilemma that we will ever transcend ourselves. As we look closer and closer for god or meaning we continually find nothing! How can this be? As much importance as i place on myself, and even others (sometimes), i can't seem to validate that in any ultimate way. So what are we left with? Well... I don't know if i'm going to be here tomorrow and i also don't know that if i'm not whether i'll be somewhere (or someone) else. I do however know that i have decided to place value on my experiences. This leads to only one conclusion as i see it: I must appreciate every miraculous moment as they come, not holding on and ruining them, and not holding back and missing them. I have no other choice for finding value!
But as we stare into the void (and the void stares back) We're poised on the brink of stark meaninglessness of loosing all hope of valuing our lives, that miraculous connotation becomes even more pronounced. "This moment really is all i have. And it's so beautiful so precious because i know it will slip away. There will be a time not long from now, when i will no longer be, my loves and likes, passions and dreads all gone with me." Nothing seems so sweet until you stand to loose it, this is a sad fact of life. But a necessary one, everything must be "real". We can't just have god telling us "ok you're really me in disguise and everything is fine because you are in fact eternal" If that happened how precious would life seem? "what does it matter if you do wrong or how much i care about others now that i know it's a game, something that doesn't actually have any substance" (as it's typically defined) If we were handed the answers, they would loose their experiential meaning, which is the whole point in the first place.
So as god's divine manifestations we must loose ourselves in the chaos of trying to maintain a self system in a very hostile world. And only through this struggle, this choice to strive, this hope in the face of hopelessness is life imbued with it's true meanings. We can stand back and appreciate the subtlety of each moment, and thus seeing the intricacies of it's interconnections, which points us toward god. Though we may have to face down tragedy (and we all will) We can do it knowing that god is in every moment and while we never see him or truly "know" him, he can never be away from us. Nothing can ever be taken from us, whether it be our life or our dreams, because those belong to god, our true selves, this moment will never die it will continue on into infinity. It may change subjects periodically, but never does it stop, and since each moment exists together, as a whole, we will always exist, even in this form, though it's in the mind of god not man that this becomes reality.
Friday, April 29, 2005
You'll find many of the truths we cling to depend greatly on our point of view" -Obi-Wan Kenobi
Truth is something that every modern person has to come to terms with. We are brought into a world where truth is paramount. Everything around us is based on the truths of some nature. In fact that's all we ever have to base things on is "truth". Kinda silly when you think about it, how else would it work? If we didn't orient ourselves by making judgements, which are all on a fundamental level based on truths, then we could never have any meaning or context. That simply is the nature of reality. We make associations with our environment based on what we see as good and bad and important and irrelevant. All of those associations are thus supported by fundamental assumptions about what reality and/or truth is. The logical conclusion would be that who we are, the things that constitute our individuality, is based upon the truths we hold.
So we have established that truth, from a personal or internal perspective, has a relative nature. What we see to be good and bad, important and irrelevant is determined by what context we place it in. There are other aspects to truth such as observable facts, like natural/universal laws and provable theorem. Obviously those don't fit into the category of relative. A relativist would argue: but even those facts work within the paradigm of science and outside that paradigm have no meaning, without that knowledge science is irrelevant, is non existent and thus are still relative to that mode of understanding. Of course most of these phenomenon do still occur without knowledge of their workings. So, even if you insist that it is relative to our existence you're still establishing an ultimate boundary for relativity.
As you can see there's alot of ways to put truth into perspective (that's a funny turn of words) I believe what i've said up to this point to basically be fact, but where Truth really gets tricky is in the in-between. Between inside and outside, relative value and observable fact. There's many ways to resolve this seeming conflict, and that is where the conjecture comes in. I think the basic gist of them all would be to look at truth on a higher, more realized level. Effecting some kind of integration of the two, finding where they meet, that should be our objective.
As we attempt to combine these two facets of truth it's necessary to further define the distinction between internal and external. Internal truth isn't simply about putting your experience within a specific context. It's about speaking from your soul, about sincerity, and integrity. We have our moment to moment experience and that can contain as much or as little of reality as we allow it. We do have a ground to which to come back, and always ask ourselves on that fundamental level is this a valid experience. This potential can be traced back to the very nature of freewill, our ability to choose.
Again you can begin to reduce this to relativistic terms, but you have to question the utility of that. That is the problem with a "relativist" they see this as some ultimate truth (funny isn't it?) instead of simply a fundamental truth, so they always cast this ultimate doubt on everything, and in the process loose their grasp on what meanings things can possibly hold. For internal or subjective truth we can see that reality is very fluid from within the kernel of combined intersubjective experience having to conform to mental patterns and affected interpretation.
For external truth what implications does this relative perspective have? It's simple enough to understand the nature of observable facts and communal confirmation as truth but what about absolute truth? What about why we're here? Where is our concrete set of rules and truths to know which end is up? We can't really answer the most fundamental question about the very first observation a self aware being has to make-"I am" that question is of course how and why? We can see that there must be some kind of genesis, some starting point, because everything we've experienced and recorded as a race has had "purpose", a direction. Perhaps the universe doesn't have a beginning or end, but one thing is for sure, at some point things did start to move forward, we are definitely going somewhere...even if forward is only what it is because that's the direction we started in.
So there is some plan or purpose to be grasped, some seemingly otherworldly conductor, some being or state of being that is calling us ever forward. In order to understand our capacity to transcend ourselves and yet maintain our own identity we have to see the absolute meanings in the Kosmos, as it applies to our scale of value. Instead of dismissing it out of hand as relative and meaningless. To understand the context of some thing's truth value doesn't imply invalidation. I think the conclusion to all this is that we must acknowledge the existence of both relative and absolute truth in the universe in order to get a clear, more inclusive picture.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Imperialist America is bad right? That's what most sensible people would conclude, but we're americans, who says we have to be sensible? Really though, hear me out.
You look at the political situation of today, it's pretty grim. Our economy is rapidly changing, growing and shrinking, constantly developing into new markets. We can barely keep up with our own progress. The lust for profit drives the worlds nation's ever onward. Of course there is the political games to be considered. The constant struggle for power and the upper hand. America sits squarely on top of it all, in all it's imperial glory. We are a nation in decline however, which greatly complicates things. We don't excel at anything but excelling it seems, we're still on top, mainly due to sheer ruthlessness and momentum. We have control of the world economy, our national budget is actually fluid so that it can account for all the trading, done with our money, in the world. There seems to be so many elements to the situation, that i couldn't even begin to weave them all together. I do however see the american agenda.
When dubya began to push his war, it would eventually become apparent as our struggle to stay on top of the world economy. By securing various elements in the middle east, and making sure that western culture is integrated, we have a strong foothold. It would be my guess that as dubya pursues this imperialist agenda, he will make sure that we play a fundamental part in world "policing" thus ensuring our nation's survival and continued importance in world politics. Of course there's alot i'm not covering like dubya's personal obligations (cold war buddies and all) And concerns over OPEC and loosing Oil Money. Basically we're stuck in a cycle of wrong choices for the wrong reasons.
Everyone is either thinking i'm an idiot or that's a horrible scenario (or both, being the correct answer) How can something like this happen? How can a people so close to transcending all their pettiness get stuck on such a low level of world-development? After all we've learned and experienced, after 2 world wars, after a Holocaust can we still be simply struggling for more personal power? The answer is yes. Definitely, we're still in the finishing stages of imperial domination. America should be the last great empire, if we could get over being stuck between a democracy and what we're truly meant to be.
What i'm implying, as abhorrent as the idea may be, is perhaps ole dubya is a harbinger for something far beyond his simple and chaney's narrow minded perception. Although, we're doing something completely wrong. Pursuing our greed and lust for power with no concern for others (no really, we DO know it's not to help) Perhaps in the end, something good will come out of it. Just like our alienation of internal wisdom for external knowledge, though bad, was still necessary in order to bring our world under control. We need to tame the world, before we can really tame ourselves, i think. Once all the lower level injustices are brought to light, in our modern perspective, and hopefully dealt with on that level, we can deal with the problems of modernity more readily.
What i mean is that while there are starving children and genocide and gender subjugation it's hard to completely merge with the unfolding of spirit in divine love. Perhaps what we have to realize is that there are still events in motion that need to be brought to a head, before we, as a race, can continue our development. Although our beautiful nation is committing some of the same atrocities we all know we need to grow past, perhaps we need to look beyond that. To see what this will bring to fruition farther into the future. Even though we are imposing our ideas on the rest of the world, that does include bringing them up to a higher standard of existence, and thus giving them the possibilities and freedom we should cherish so much. When we subjugate these middle eastern tribes we may be destroying their unique expression of government, but the ideas still remain to be cherished, and the culture itself lives on. It only changes, as all living things must. We are all in this together, we are all changing each other, and we MUST become aware of that.
Perhaps though dubya's policies will allow enough momentum for the rest of the world to be brought up to world-centric human rights, and given a place among the rest of the modern world. Once his "Reign of Evil" has ended, we may actually be able to pick up the pieces more readily.
Disclaimer: This, as always, is for my own education. If you have any input please feel free to share... As we both know, i have no clue what i'm talking about :)
The Real is an idea that was first conceived of by Immanuel Kant... as far as i can tell :) Basically this is the first clear presentation of the fact that internal reality and external reality are irrevocably separated. The concept states that there is a "kernel" of reality that is impenetrable to our senses. An aspect of existence that we are cut off from. When we experience an object outside of ourselves, we do it through our perceptions. Thus we are at the mercy of any falsity that might arise in our apprehension of the data. Space and time are both concepts created by our arrangement of reality into a presupposition that allows operation. They are not external to our perceptions, we create them through differentiation. The conclusion of these assertions is that we are seeing reality through a veil. There is certain things about the "outside" world we are completely denied knowledge of. This, as usual, is a subject i am still educating myself on. The implications and applications of the concept are wide spread i know. Ranging from the nature of metaphysics to our capacity to make a value assertion.(which to me is much the same thing)
It seems that most proceeding philosophy is a reaction to this seemingly undeniable assertion. It is a problem in that we can find no place for truth in an environment like that. No matter how me look for it, if there is something unapproachable/inconceivable to reality how can we establish ultimate truth? If God is unknowable how can we gauge value? Many approaches have been attempted varying from trying to find meaning from within this seeming meaninglessness(without trying to look beyond what we can know), to ignoring the question altogether.
I think it is a question that plagues modernity in general, and is an epidemic for the thoughtful. How can we find self identity, if we can't identify an ultimate truth? The sad fact is there's no good answer to this. There's an infinitude of ways we can approach (and possibly solve) this problem, so the question becomes which way is best for ME? This is something i find myself coming back to again and again. so instead of restating what i always say, perhaps we can look past my typical point of learning to validate personal experience. Instead to realize that perceived validation or lack there of, has no impact on the value or our experience. they are what they are, no matter how we label them. That unknowable kernel operates outside our perceptions and thus any concept we could place on it would simply fall short. Whatever intrinsic value experience seems to have, by nature of it's existence outside our comprehension, perhaps we can learn to intuit and appreciate it, instead of trying to impose mental boundaries upon it.
Monday, April 25, 2005
In your light I learn how to love. In your beauty, how to make poems. You dance inside my chest, where no one sees you, but sometimes I do, and that sight becomes this art.
QUIETNESS Inside this new love, die. Your way begins on the other side. Become the sky. Take an axe to the prison wall. Escape. Walk out like someone suddenly born into color. Do it now. You're covered with thick cloud. Slide out the side. Die, and be quiet. Quietness is the surest sign that you've died. Your old life was a frantic running from silence. The speechless full moon comes out now.
THE MUSIC For sixty years I have been forgetful, every minute, but not for a second has this flowing toward me stopped or slowed. I deserve nothing. Today i recognize that I am the guest that mystics talk about. I play this living music for my host. Everything today is for my host.
WEAN YOURSELF Little by little, wean yourself. This is the gist of what I have to say. From an embryo, whose nourishment comes in the blood, move to an infant drinking milk, to a child on solid food, to a searcher after wisdom, to a hunter of more invisible game. Think how it is to have a conversation with an embryo. You might say, "The world outside is vast and intricate. There are wheatfields and mountain passes, and orchards in bloom. At night there are millions of galaxies, and in sunlight the beauty of friends dancing at a wedding." You aks the embryo why he, or she, stays cooped up in the dark with eyes closed. Listen to the answer. There is no "other world" I only know what I've experienced. You must be hallucinating.
Saturday, April 23, 2005
I'm having some trouble maintaining my momentum on this blog. I don't think it's a permanent thing, but i've just poured so many ideas out all at once, basically. I believe now that i've integrated this blog into my personality and began to learn from it and grow with it. Once i've read more and thought more, then i'll have more to say.
The process of forming ideas and patterns is still very internal for me, and mostly hidden at that. But i can see how Blogging has augmented that significantly, however, my ego wants retreat to regroup and understand it's new self and go through the solely internal process of forming new structures around that experience and then re approaching reality.
I would propose instead to teach myself a new way to explore my depths. I think that communal confirmation is an important, if not the singular, concept to truth. When we blog we are presenting ourselves to the public. Even if that's not our intent, we are still opening ourselves to that possibility. No matter how much you may intend for that not to be an object, on a fundamental level, it still is. So integration of internal unfolding with blogging as the medium, would dictate as certain honesty with ones self. "Ok this is what i believe, now that i've written it down, are other people going to see my logic?" If we can maintain an honest dialogue with ourselves as we do this, then we will bring to light many problems with our confined perspective, and hopefully transcend them
Also Blogging as an art form has great potential for expression. As we report on something, pull an idea together, or simply line up our day to day events we are engaging in the process of creation. Thus far i've put that into two categories for myself: Creating the blog as an independant entity, with self contained ideas and narration, to be taken without consideration of the individual creating it. This i believe focuses us on clarifying our ideas away from our egos, letting them develop within their own space.Also we can fully attach our egos to blogging and project our experiences and emotions and opinions into it. I believe this route also leads to higher level of personal development because as we examine our interaction, on a personal level, with the Blogosphere we begin to objectify that as well. For those inclined to blog, we are given a strong impetus to be creative and present something of substance. As we do this i believe, of course, we are tapping into the divine. Allowing it to manifest through us, in much the same way as an artist. We are acting on a higher energy plane and this will give us the momentum to continue our personal and communal evolution to it's ultimate fulfillment.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Today i shall talk about what everyone else seems to be.
The pope, great! It really surprise me to hear so much negativity about something that's potentially such a good thing. I don't know or care to know about the pope and who he is. Just not my interest, i am interested in the outcome though. Seems to me that everyone is already casting stones and the fellow has barely got that huge ridiculous hat on. Can we at least let him make his first immaculate mistake before we decide he's actually the anti-christ. CNN has been running a story basically refuting claims that he is a Nazi sympathizer. This is because being german, and old, the pope was in the Hitler Youth and also served the German army in WW2. I have to tell you this, neither of those things makes him a Nazi.
The world is going through so much change right now, obviously this is going to have major ramifications on Tradition. As people evolve and develop into higher states of mind we let go of our past prejudices and ignorance and embrace a new more holistic paradigm. An entity such as the Church will not long survive (in any real sense) if it doesn't grow and change with the world. You can't have a church still refusing to admit the world is round. Obviously that particular example is something our previous friendly neighborhood pope took care of "hey world...yeah we're um, coming outta the middle ages now...yeah for real"
But simple apologies aren't enough. With a growing percent of believers no longer being properly described by that term, something is in obvious need of change. The church hopefully will begin to express some more advanced ideas about divine union and the like, of course that's a long hard road, even today, but one they're going to have to go down. Basically more than anything they need to admit the nature of reality and stake a place for themselves within that context. "Sure Jesus' wasn't actually THE savior, really more like one among thousands, in fact we're not even sure if he meant to be anything more than a cult leader. But hey, he was a nice guy and we've got a bunch of really old pretty buildings, so come see our funny hats"
That kind of stance of course isn't going to happen, but what i'm saying is that you can acknowledge the nature of truth and still find meaning within the context of a dogma. I believe if the church could simply take that stand, and deal with all the difficult changes that would bring, then something unparalleled in beauty could grow out of a religion like christianity. With it's selfless love, and personal communion with god and membership within the godhead through christ's sacrifice, imagine if christians grew to see that we are ALL brothers and sisters. What kind of heavenly kingdom might dawn then?
What i'm trying to convey is that just because the church is a huge cumbersome organization that is very outdated and steeped in mythic imagery doesn't mean it can't catch up. As far as the pope goes, he's only one man, let's give him a chance, and hope for the best. If everyone is negative from the outset, how is that going to set the stage for him? If everyone is positive and receptive, what might he be inspired to do seeing a world ripe for change?
Monday, April 18, 2005
Still slowly working my way through "Sex, Ecology, and Spirituality" by Wilber (of course), so as to feel truly learned on the subject.
Before he starts into part 2 of the book, at one point he goes over the ideas of Archetypes associated with people like Jung and Joseph Campbell. Before i discovered Wilber both of these individuals were very informative for me. I appreciate there idea of the deep layers of subconscious where archetypes arise, and the ways in which we are constituted by/interact with and how those are a gateway to the divine.
As per normal, i'm not incredibly educated on the subject, but no worries i fully intend to talk about it anyway, in the true american style. :)
Wilber says that our connection with the archetypal figures is something that occurs on the mythic stage of development, and while at that point it was the collective vision of the divine, is not actually connected to the transpersonal. I can see what Wilber is saying here, but this is one point i don't completely agree with. Of course, one tends to feel kinda foolish even debating a point of Wilbers, just because of his extreme erudition, so if anyone understands why i'm wrong please let me know.
It think perhaps the structure of the tibetan pantheon integrated into their tantric practices would serve as a good example of why i disagree. It seems to me that while Wilbur is correct in his assessment that those archetypes exist down on mythic level, they are a form, however deluded, of the transpersonal and thus can serve as a gateway into the transpersonal. Perhaps this is analogous to the way that dancing can induce ecstatic states.
In tantric practice one takes the ideal form of a diety and projects that into existence and then attempts to embody those ideals. Of course alot of those monks have the literal belief in the deities mythic existence as well. So via there belief in the ideal they are able to transcend themselves.
Wilber may very well account for that, and he's simply stating that connecting to these archetypes is not THE way to transpersonal, but after reading it over, i couldn't get past what seemed like a dismissal of this ideas importance.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
I've been talking about music recently and it's caused me to start turning certain ideas over in my mind, shall we discuss them? Good, i'm glad we're in agreement.
In Tantra and more specific to my point in Mantra the idea of Root syllables or Root sounds are central. This is not something i've explored in great depth, but the idea seems to have a good bit of credence to it.
The idea states that all sound or thought (all of the All) come from more fundamental aspects or roots. Think of it like this as the universe unfolds from it's allness into the manyness it has to add on more and more layers to continue the process of differentiation. The implications of this being that these root forms are closer to the source and thus contain a certain amount of power, if you will.
In meditative practices such as tantra visualization or mantra one utilizes these roots to bring about an effect, primarily being transpersonal experience. I think this connection between reality and root forms might point to some more subtle implications. The sufis believe music to be of the most divine origins, for this very reason. The vibrations of the universe are embodied in the symbolic vibrations we create in music, and thus invoke to some extent the divine "presence".
Obviously a philosophy like this is esoteric, and probably not of much use in day to day life, but i do think it has implications that extend that far. It's safe to say that 99% of everyone listens to music, and the music has an impact on their moods and thoughts. Perhaps a musician who understands the nature of these root forms can bring that to the forefront in their presentation, and thus engineer a deeper experience for the listener.
I think one of the more valuable implications of this idea is the nature of the sacred. According to this both root thoughts (syllables) and root sounds are very close to the Source, and thus contain a large aspect of the divine. To an individual our thoughts don't really have a specific connotation overall. Meaning they are what they are, which ranges from sacred and deep to profane and trite. What we don't realize is that range of connotation is imposed by us, as our thoughts become more confined to the ego they become more convoluted and more confining. When we have a bad thought, it's bad because we make it so. Our thoughts are inherently sacred. Think about the first word, in that one, first, meaningful utterance the entire universe was crossed. We go from isolated to connected in the span of to be.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
It seems to me that as technology develops into cyberspace and our interactions with it quickly evolve and deepen we free our thoughts/values/symbols of our "real world" interactions. What i think this means is not totally clear :) The essence of it though revolves around our capacity to transcend the traditions and behavior/thought patterns we have developed.
Perhaps as we grow to identify our ego with the blogosphere it will bloom into something much richer and deeper. A gateway to the divine, a tool for self/communal exploration, a new unique dimension of being, alive it it's own right. A free sharing of information and a exponential increase in medium by which to transmit information and experience.
Now in the more immediate perspective... Perhaps as we all begin to share ideas via blog we can purify or distill our symbols, leaving our defenses and prejudices in the "real world" I believe if all of us thought about that for a year as we poked our noses around the internet something truly wonderful would emerge...What am i talking about? That's already happening.
America can seem like a pretty shallow place, and in a lot of ways it is. However, I think that if properly oriented there is much value to be found.
On the surface you see Capitalism and Consumerism have run rampant, infecting the lives of all americans. When was the last time you had a meal that wasn't sealed in plastic first? (counting restaurants?, then you haven't worked in one) One might think that's an arbitrary thing to complain about. Who says wrapping food in plastic is bad? Well it's good if you need to stockpile, and it's convenient. There are many more drawbacks though. If you freeze food it looses much of it's nutritional value. Anything coming from a corporation has been altered and augmented either chemically or genetically for higher production and sales (not health)
Take a look at the american people *cringe* what does one see? I see well meaning people who are really fucked in the head, to make a broad generalization. We are so cramped for time and personal space that most of us are on the verge of snapping (or maybe that's just me) We are bombarded with stimuli whether it be radio commercials, billboards, tv commercials, movie commercials (my personal favorite, I stopped watching tv because of the damned things, do I have to stop going to the movies too?) Internet commercials or just plain ole commercials... how about those jingles you get stuck in your head? "my bologna has a first name it's S-A-T-A-N"
Most americans are overweight, a lot of them have high blood pressure, and alchoholism is worse here than anywhere else. It seems like more people in america are on anti-depressants than are not. A lot of people, especially gen x and beyond, come from broken families. Which I guess stems from our lack of personal commitment and values, not to mention how much sex is sold here. Why look at my wife, who by the way has put on a few pounds, when I can look at Jennifer Lopez? (everyone wants a slut (just to lay my opinion of "j-lo" on the table))
Ok, enough america bashing, let's get to the positive stuff. Obviously there is a reason things are like this, and there's a solution (if we're willing to find it) The primary reason would be that modern culture is still in shock over the worldcentric shift in values. Now that we have so much we're exposed to, so much information, so many paradigms, so many distractions, where does one orient themselves? Within what context? That seems negative, but perhaps a more accurate assessment of that fact would be twofold: it's a challenge for us to develop as individuals, and it gives us a tabula rasa.
While americans have plenty of their own trappings, most of them are shallow enough to be easily shed given some determination. What better way to reorient oneself within a new worldview than by having no other option? One who doesn't have the benefit of a solid foundation laid down by their culture. Is it coincidence that Ken Wilber, one of the first to identify our need for integration and reevaluation, is an american?
The other main thing americans have going for them in the integration race is our common diversity, our extreme multiplicity. We ARE the melting pot... we don't just have to come to terms with it, we have to BE it. Also because of this diversity along with our priveledged status and ease of lifestyle there has been a great expansion of possible relationships and associations, along with possible interests and values. Basically we have everything at our fingertips, all the possibility in the world. I spoke in my last post about infinite diversity and infinite possibilities being the goal of evolution/spirit. That's us.
So to conclude I would say that while we have a rough time ahead of us, we're well equipped to handle it (if we so choose) In my previous years i've felt very alienated from the american people, like I don't belong here... then I realized for that exact reason I do belong :) We may be a disfunctional family, with an abusive father even, but we still need to love each other just the same. Love heals all wounds, I say.